I have always been amazed at how time flies. Past, present and future. The past, can be something we want to reoccur or something we wish to forget. The present however are the most powerful thing in life. Present will determine how your past and future would be like. Future is something you would want to aim or have imaginary thoughts about, fantasising and pondering every now and then.

My present currently forced me to grow at a rapid motion. My career has been something I never thought I would be. I wish my time to upgrade could be shorter. I have big dreams about it. Well, we'll see how it goes.

My friends and I are doing perfectly great. One of my bestie has created her own happily-ever-after ending. It really is unbelievable to see how much we've grown.

Halim and I love each other more and more each day. Its a 5 years kinda love. It is hard to exemplify in words, but easier to be understood only by the two of us. However, we always find it hard to believe that we can make this work. There are many occurrences of doubting each other. We always feel like giving up,but I guess that's how relationship works, the more we want it, the more obstacles and misunderstandings we went through. We exhibits same characterisitcs, in a way or another. What he dislikes are my dislikes too, but somehow we are stubborn enough to agree to that. The only time that we will fight often is when we are apart from each other, somehow when we meet, everything will turn all sweet again. Its funny how sometimes he refuse to listen to me, but when I talked to him face-to-face,he would listen to me intently with his soothing eyes and nodding to approval. More often than not, he asked me again and again why do I love him and again and again I would asked him the same. I guess, its that reassurance that we need to check in every now and then. His long stare into my eyes alongside with his long eyelashes would really soothe my anger instantly. HIs warm hug around my waist makes me fall back to him. I don't know if its love, but I think it is....

Life has been awesomely AWESOME!

Sachxyass is the sweetest and has been the very very best.

Sometimes, I feel bad for bullying him, but nah, it was for the best. Heheehe..

Saaaayaaang derdie I. I'm soo0oo excited about our plans. Besh besh besh skali. Suke.. =)

When saying stop is easier than stopping itself.

Then, I'll say, let's start it again for the last time.

You know me the best and I'll tell you the least,

my ego is hugesometimes.

I'm glad I shared with you my sunken stories.

 You're the best!

I hate being told what to do,

my nature is to do the opposite.

I miss MISS SWAN.

Just a teeny weeny bit please

You know you're in love when you smiled upon seeing his face.

You know you're in love when saying goodbye becomes a chore.

You know you're in love when hugging turns so tight and it becomes hard to let go.

You know you're in love when nothing else matters except him.

And I know I'm in love because he proved me so.

There were no tears.

It was almost as if this kind of sadness was beyond crying.

Beyond all conventional reactions to pain.

There was just....emptiness.

There are a few things that are f***ing messed up now.

We are in deep shit.

Nonetheless,I couldn't care less coz.. I just couldn't.

Let's see how bad it gets.

How I wish it wouldn't be this way, I got other problems to entertain,

and you my friend,

added it up to it.

Thanks.

On other note, Aisyah, we all miss you.

Although we did not call you to ask how are you and all,

we care, and are waiting for your mighty super return.

Whatever that means.

Hey Sachxyass, 

Do you remember the time, when you jogged from your place to my place and surprised me after that? And do you remember surprising me right in front of my window at night just to give me chocolates? After I told you on the phone, that I'm craving for one in the middle of the night.

And,and do you remember the day before you're gone, you accompanied me to run the whole town eventhough you're tired and I'm tired but still you try your very best to put a smile on my face?

And, and, and do you remember that night, when you secretly paid for the battery-operated sharpener knowing that I wanted it badly just because my bestfriend had one? and the same night you accompanied me home eventhough you're sick and you had Mak's dinner in your hand, you were there to protect me from those hooligans in the bus.

And, and, and,and, do you remember how we always have the same thoughts, and we would always say this to each other?;" Are you thinking what I'm thinking B1?" And, how we always stumbles upon the same words together, and would say,'Snap,chop,twist, dot,dot..?"

I never asked so much from you, but you always know what to do to put a smile on my face and to make me miss you even more...

Is that how you  make me miss you?

Let me tell you how I feel these few days.. I feel dead, barren, stagnant etc.etc.. I find myself staring into space sometime. Bus rides for example, will automatically turn me into a zombie. I will stare and sits upright while listening to my ipod. I feel totally dead. I hate this feeling I had now., how shall I describe it.. hmm.. I feel so alone, tired, restless and lack of excitement. in life.

Anyways, Sachxyass, those few rushy words you whispered to me the other time, was really.. refreshing. Eventhough, there were tears in our eyes, and that undescriable feelings we had. It was really enlighteningly wonderful. Your parents were undeniably sweet, to let me have a few moments with you alone. I wish I could repeat that moment again.

Sachxyass, hearing those words you whispered to me, really knocks me hard. You reminded me of how much you love me, as you know, its been a long time since I heard you hence, those powerful words really helps me alot. Why oh why the glass has to be the barrier.. Haiz. Well, at least I will never forget how badly we wanted to kiss or even touch each other.

Life has been... fast? It still moves whether or not I want to. Whenever I want life to stops, I will sleep. Sleep my life through. Hahaz. Tonight, seemed like other nights, other solitude nights I had..but I think I'm going to need the pills. Knock me down pills, please. Sounds pathetic huh? Well, it feels right though.  I wish we could communicate through our minds eventhough you're far away. Why didn't we sign up for supernatural powers last time? At times like this, it would be helpful. Kla, Sachxyass, before I continue talking crap here, I think I better knock off.

Waiting and still waiting,

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I think of you when life gets me down..

I think of you when I see the sea,

I think of you when I ride the bus.

I think of you when I went to bed.

I think of you when I'm alone.

I think of you when I see babies.

I think of you when I'm choosing what to eat.

I think of you when I look at Mak.

I think of you now, and I will think of you everyday...

I miss you badly.......